I got a call from Jet Fuel yesterday. She is interested. Well, so am I, in getting her. She has set up a date certain for Friday. I am "pumped" LOL. I am falling behind on my phone calls. I gotta focus on finishing up meeting everyone this week before moving anyone new in. Oh guess what. As predicted, Diana Noross said she would call me and didnt. Well looks like I made the right decsision. Nobody likes a flake. I"m cool with it.

So I talked to Viva and she says that things with her beau arent going anywhere. Aaaawwwww. So that creates an opportunity for me to well, ya know..

Another uneventful evening. I talked to Jet Fuel last night. She is so cute I think I am going to see if I can see her today. I also talked to Dr Feelgood and well, she wants to see me.. However she is teaching the maymester class right now and subsequently now has other things to do besides worry about the other women in my life, preceived or real. I have a lunch date for today. I am cautiously optimisitc. Details at 11

Damn, you should see the hot Korean girl that works for one of my clients white pants + thong + anexoric apearance send chills up and down my spine, well not really my spine. Anyway, she was stooping next to me this morning and all I could see was that thong on her little booty LOL Nice. Now I want a pedicure. (A good opportunity to have Asian women spread their legs in front of you put your feet in between them, rub your feet and ask you how your day was)

NorthDallas40 decided to respond to my second tirade made to get rid of her. (start email) It"s good to hear from you (insert my name here). I realize now that you are a very nice man, however, you are a no nonsense, no room for error kind of person, and (insert my name here). , I"m not perfect. I will and do make mistakes. I will upset my man at times. I will do something to really tick him off, but he"s going to stay with me because he knows I"m a good woman and he knows I"m worth it. If a man thinks I"m worth "hanging out with long enough for me to heal" - then he"s the man for me. I need a man with patience in my life, and so far, no one has been able to fit that bill. I"m quite sure there are men out there with "issues" also - in your case I believe you"re looking for that "perfect" relationship. No arguments, no mistrust, whatever you want goes. Everything will be hunky dorey. I used to look at life through rose colored glasses like that also. But I learned the hard way. Anyway, I hope you and I are able to stay friends, maybe go out for a drink or something one day soon. Whatcha think? (end email) I think I will not really worry about her. I just don't have the patience for that.

Well I had (just got back from) lunch with Skindarella (thats what I will call her) Skindarella is skinny (real skinny) and to be honest with you, kind of boring. Thats ok. Boring sometimes isint that bad. She asked me what the rest of my week was like so she may be interested. We"ll see. I"ll send the obligitory thank you letter and see what I get back…

I sent an e-mail to NorthDallas40 in response to hers the other day. Here it is.. (start email)It seems our story follows the usual course of events (the conveyor belt of meeting, red-flags, good bye, repeat etc..) down to the last letter. I warned you that I was not like other men. I suppose a lot of other men would have ignored the message or better yet, apologize for getting his car fixed or some other typical response that a man who was raised by his mother (and therefore easily told what to do by a woman) would give followed by his home telephone number per your request and anything else you wanted LOL... You didn’t even know the second time I talked to you, I called you from home. LMAO. You’re also correct in the fact that I don’t accept ultimatums from anyone especially from a woman I don’t know. Seriously though, I am not him. I am my father’s son. I suppose we could have been good friends but unless you risk being disappointed you will have no success. I believe you are a good person. I also believe its going to take someone meek to deal with you, and do so long enough for you to heal you from your journey to this point in your life. Seriously though, I am not him. I am not weak. I am certainly not meek. As you have demonstrated *my* margin for error is zero. Now I’m sure if one of your girlfriends saw some red flags like I did Sunday, and took similar action you would get behind them, tell them ‘you go girl’ and so forth. Right now I need for you to get behind me and give me the support I deserve not as a woman or man, but as a human being. Crap, I am just a youngster. I had better start acting like one or else my cover (that I am actually a grown a$$ed man, dedicated father of 2, degreed and self-employed) will be blown. (end email)

Time to put NorthDallas40 to bed for good. I sent her this.. (start email) (NorthDallas40 "s name) You assume again. I have plenty of room for error, but everyone has buttons. You pressed them by assuming everything when you don’t know me. As a man, I just don’t get to do something like that. There are plenty of men with issues out there. You have been with them. We both know that. I am not looking for anything close to perfect. Perfect would be boring. But your whole attitude Sunday to me is indicative of something else I’d simply rather not be around. I will never make you pay for what other women have done to me. While I am not perfect it is something I make a conscious effort not to do. If you really knew me you would know that I am patient because it is what I was taught to be. My father was patient with my mother and, understood her ways. They stayed married until my mother died in May of 2000 after 43 years of marriage. I learned a lot from him. You didn’t even give me a chance. I will admit though that I am usually not the grantor of mercy where I never received any myself. As I always say, imagine me being one of your girlfriends telling you this story. What would you have her do? If she was no-nonsense ((email)I have no time for games, please don’t be playing games) , no room for error ((phone message)I don’t know what kind of game you are playing but I am not waiting for anyone---- and leave a home number please) type of person, you would support her. That’s OK. Women have things that are red-flags to them and are entitled to them. I have mine. Just remember when I make a decision I need your support too. I need you behind me. For the foreseeable future I think that e-mail is the best venue for us. It is my wish that you keep in touch with me and tell me all about that new man of yours when he arrives. I will pray that Gods Grace will allow you to heal and trust again. His grace has already healed me. Good Luck! (end email) Hopefully that puts a bow on it. I am not messing with an over 40 woman with a bad attitude. I can go see some black play for that.

I told Honey Love she could model the thong for me if she wanted. Yep. I am going to manuver that booty into position one more time. I just have to play it cool... (Start Email) I remember you saying blue was your favorite color. My skin tone will work in any color. Not saying my body will but I"m sure you wouldn't be upset. (smile)

I just got a call from Jet Fuel. She asked me if I missed her. Well, if you saw that booty, you would miss it too! LOL!

Just got a response from NorthDallas40 She is so screwed up. Here is part of the email she sent back. (start email) Forgive me, but you are so right that I am assuming a lot. Unfortunately I have had to assume nearly my entire life and with men because I"m never told the truth or entire story, therefore I make up my own scenarios. Guess old, old habits are hard to break. (end email) At least she admits to the monkey wrench.

One drop for drop I guess. Skinderella just said that she wants a godly man and didnt think that I was one of them. Well so much for that!

So I am taking Dr Feelgood to a wedding Saturday. Dammit. What was I thinking. Well, I hope she doesnt get any ideas.

Dr Feelgood calls this morning to ask if we could go to lunch today. Well, I really dont feel like it today. I am just getting over some serious GI-Tract problems (some sort of Anal Revenge from the loopster) and dehydration. Well, I"ve gotten out of seeing her all week so its time to face the music.

So, it looks like Honey Love has decided to make a piece offering.. I suppose she wants to go out with me again and have some Adult or Clinton Situations and language... (start email I sent her)Sent: Thursday, May 15, 2003 10:42 AM Subject: RE: How to fade from recent memory... Importance: High You might just need a good tease for a small fee, you contact me maybe on your birthday I will be ready. (End Email) I then sent back the following: (Start Email) Sent: Thursday, May 15, 2003 10:44 AM Subject: RE: How to fade from recent memory... A small fee? What small fee? (End Email) She replied, and here"s where we find out what she really wants.. (Start Email) Sent: Thursday, May 15, 2003 10:47 AM Subject: RE: How to fade from recent memory... Whatever your good at, spending money, eating out (me), etc. (End Email) Hmmmmm.. when should I take her up on this? It would be nice to toss that booty of hers again...

I had a good conversation with Paul-a-Mitchell today. She wants to get together as soon as she gets done with her next photo shoot...

Damn, here I am in my own bed again.. I talked to Jet Fuel yesterday until about midnight, well she was talking anyway. I was watching the game. She wants to go to the movies tomorrow, late tomorrow.. That works out. She lives in Duncanville so the drive to Dr Feelgood"s will be shorter LOL..

I also talked to Christany yesterday. I told her I wanted to see her but she said she wasnt ready to see me yet. I wonder what the hell thats about. Let me see, trust issues? I wonder. Anyway what still cracks me up about the whole thing is that she asked me how could I cheat on someone I loved. I wanted to ask her, how could you come over knowing all of this.. No bother. I am a patient man.

I got an e-mail from NorthDallas40 this morning. One of those annoying e-mails you get that is addressed to a billion people with something kind of inspirational message. I am completely inundated with these things daily. I cant make rules on my Exchange Server complex enough to handle them all. I have got to upgrade to Exchange Server 2003. Anyway I sent an e-mail saying that if she wanted to send an e-mail to me to do so directly and take me off any distribution list(s) she may have. She of course over-reacted. Here is the e-mail. (start email)Please forgive me for putting you on a list with my friends - I have removed your name. I won't send you anymore emails - sorry. It"s really hard just trying to be your friend - it"s like I"m damned if I do and damned if I don't in everything I do regarding you. I meant nothing by this - I just thought it was nice. That"s the ONLY reason you got it - in fact, I added your email address at the last minute. Sorry. (end email) What was so screwed up about this was that the email she sent was about relationships and how if someone doesnt want you dont mess with them etc.. She should know right?

This is turning out to be one of those balls to the wall days. Today I am having happy hour with Angry Walk (with that cute booty of hers) and friends while she is on vacation at her boyfriends house (a place she visited even less than Dr Feelgood visited mine) Afterward more happiness with a new Lawyer friend of mine. I think I will call her The Law, not to be confused with an Attorney I was involved with last year. Afterward some Matrix Reloaded with Jet Fuel and after leaving her, a crash landing before the wedding at Dr Feelgood"s place. Whew! So, I"ve packed my bags for a few days and I"m off. There has got to be some booty in it for me somewhere in this...

Well I ended up having a pleasant dinner with The Law and I am going to think about that for a second. She is a little older than I am but she is holding up well. LMAO... I skipped Jet Fuel. I"ll pick that up Sunday. Anyway its 3AM and I am wide awake at Dr Feelgood"s and on top of that, I have a wedding to go to today.

Lets check the score.. Things didnt work out with The Law. She felt that I was too smooth or something like that and felt I was playing games. Well, she was right. So much for that. Saturday Dr Feelgood and I went to Ken and Bridget"s wedding. What a beautiful and simple ceremony. It was also good to see good friends and have a good time. It almost slipped out that Ken"s bachelor party was at my house. (Luckily the real screw..up is between Willie J and I) I also had a chance to meet Biff, Tiff"s (Angry Walk) boyfeiend (forever). He"s a nice guy. Really. However I always say, a nice guy who loves you and will never marry you is still a nice guy who loves you. Spinsterville: Population 1.... LOL.. Jet Fuel is now making a move to monopolize my time. She is so attractive to me I just might take her up on her offer, I checked her out Sunday after I left Dr Feelgood before her mother came over so they can tag-team tease/manipulate me. You know, I think She talks to her mother a little too much about our relationship for my tate. The rest of Sunday I spent on the phone with some new prospects. Details at 11.

Monday Morning I got a call from PrimeTime. For those of you who are regular visitors to she is the one I mentioned in the "Our House, in the middle of our street article" Married for 10 years (separated for eight of them) she is still in court over various things. Anyway she asked for a status report on the women in my life. The Vultures.. They circle your relationship until it dies, then swoop down to pick the bones clean…

Yesterday... I went to Happy Hour and North London got smashed.. The funny part was when I grabbed her when she stumbled down the stairs and she said, "please grab me above my boob"... I am cracking up thinking about it. Anyway I went home and hit the phones, struggling to keep up the calls and get dates made for next week. Jet Fuel IM"d me yesterday and said that she was at home and if I wanted to see her to stop by. Well, I did just that. We hung out and watched the game followed by ice cream, followed by a kiss, followed by my promptly being booted out of the house and, being told to call tomorrow. So, this is the part where I get teased right? I like her. I think I may have fun with her outside of the bedroom too. She gets on my nerves in a good way.

Yesterday was pleasant. I had happy hour with the usual suspects and a ever so slightly tightly clad Angry Walk. Spinstervilles first citizen looked scrumptous. Well, that made my day. Afterward I jetted full-tilt toward Dr Feelgoods house so we could go out to dinner which was pleasant. You know is so screwey that I could be with someone who stimulates my mind like that, but I just cant "get into" her. She"s just not wild enough I guess. Spinsterville: population two. Am I the only one with a graduate degree that knows where San Succi is? Oh well. Because of the fact that Dr Feelgood had to work on her lesson plans until 1AM I got out of having to put out last night. I did talk to Jet Fuel briefly. I got to get her on a regular schedule so I can move forward without her tripping about getting her time in and, imagine this, questioning my intentions.

I am still working on Christany. She is putting up some fierce resistance but, I am making some headway.

I got some phone calls caught up yesterday. I may have some new ones worth mentioning next week. I talked to Ilia yesterday. She wants to get together soon. I also talked to Human Sacrifice, she also wants to see me next week and says she has a gift for me. I got a gift for her too. LOL. In other news, I got a call from Jet Fuel. Tonight was her night to work late so, no 40 mile drive yesterday. Instead I stayed up on the phone with a potential one until midnight and, decided not to go anywhere. For now I have to figure out whats going on @ Dr Feelgoods. She has some relatives in town for the weekend and if they are staying with her, then that means I am free and clear to navigate before and after the rodeo. Yea!

I made some progress with Christany. She now says she may go out with me next week. I looked at a picture of her the other day I had on my desktop from last year. Damn she looks good.

I had lunch with Viva today. She once again tells me about how her love life is going nowhere and then, suggests that I call her sometime. Sure I will. I"ll send her an email to see where her head and mine is today.

After Angry Hour, I went out with Irish Spring yesterday. We talked and ate for a spell and I think I have stumbled across a rare thing. 40, no drama, and really attractive. She is part Irish and it shows LOL. She sent back an email after calling after we parted stating that she had a good time and she felt comfortable. I was really cool with that. So far so good. In the meantime I got a call from Jet Fuel talking about my availability to talk on the phone or in this case, lack thereof. She asked if I was married or something. I replied that she should consider a tour of my house to look for womens clothing and get back to me if she found anything. Well its time to shed some dead weight anyway..

I talked to Christany. I dont know what the heck is going on with her. Im not even talking about the not trusting me part anymore. She seems sad. Something serious has happened to her tht she does not want to talk about. I can speculate but I will keep from doing that.

Out of the past comes some baggage cars. Let me go through them. Well the first came from a good friend of mine I just dont hear from that often. Non-Stick Surface called asking various questions about me, my lovelife and et-cetera. She is a good friend of mine and even offered to introduce me to a friend of hers. That was cool. Then she says she "missed me". That was interesting as well, I havent seen her in over a year. LOL. The big problem with her is the simple fact she has two children she had with a married man. The second is Dee Nyce. She is actually talked about Look for "Our House, in the Middle of Our Street" in Hysteria. She is pretty, intelligent and very cool. Her big issue is that she has been married for about 10 years, separated for seven of them. Her husband wants a divorce but will not claim his daughter. He bought a house (after they separated) and she wants a cut. And, now she is calling me. Amazing huh? I wonder what she really wants. I asked her "Ok, so I"ve talked to you more in the last week than I have in the last six months" Why call now? She replied "Some relationships are worth keeping and I don’t want this one to get away" Anyone want to try to interpret that one? LOL

Last night on my way to Angry hour I talked to Irish Spring. I think things are rolling along nicely. I will see her tomorrow. Afterward I went out to dinner and a movie with Jet Fuel. She got on my nerves repeatedly but, she is a lot of fun to be with. I am going to work on that slowly. I think I am going to see if I can make a move next week sometime. Ilia called while I was in the movie after the Mavericks lost. Afterward, at 1AM I got a call from the Tee Dee. She said I was on her mind and called me. She is interesting. She has a real interest in me. Its a sincere one though. Its disturbing. (not really). Tentatively I will see her tomorrow. I am getting ready to start my day and hang out with Dr Feelgood at the rodeo.

Today I talked to Tee Dee, she gave me her address and she plans to cook for me tomorrow. Sweet! Anyway I spent most of the afternoon talking to The Charmed (A show about Witches right?) She reminds me a lot of somebody else who seems to cast spells. LOL.. Anyway The Charmed is pretty and is interested. More on her later. I spoke with Irish Spring and then, on to pick up Dr Feelgood her friend Sandra (cute girl, but married) and her daughter who took an instant liking to me. Guess who I ran into while I was there? Troubled Water! She was the one who gave me the 8x11 glamour shot swimsuit picture of her and then said it was because I was a friend. I ask again? How many women give swimsuit pictures of themselves to friends? LOL.

Today I took Irish Spring to the airport to get a car so she can go to Houston. Anyway she had on some shorts.. Nice legs.. Anwyay after that I took off to go see Tee Dee. What a nice woman, spiritually grounded and, well versed in what she wants and what her role is in her mans life. Thats a welcome change. Unfortunately though, there is no chemistry (physically). We ate at her place and then went to church where she sang an inspired song. We talked for a few minutes and then I left. I talked to Jet Fuel on the phone on the way back. I really wanted to go see Dr Feelgood but I have to take Irish Spring to get the car back tomorrow and, she wants to go to lunch with me. So, I have to stay here I guess. I cant figure an excuse to leave. I"ll stay put. Dammit.