New Years Eve was great. We went to a party and had a great time. The place was packed with women but, I was content 2b with "The Witch". Only one ex was @ this affair. I sent out an e-mail wishing everyone a Happy New Year from the three of us. This should quiet the phone and the e-mail traffic down a bit. At minimum the hoes that dont care will show themselves...

I spent New Years Day @ her sisters. Her sister knows. Her mother does not (about the baby that is) She plans to tell her mother friday. She will no-doubt freak out.

Christany sent me a picture. Damn she is cute.

Christany says we can be friends, and I cant be a playah. Not bad. She is such a cutie though.(START EMAIL) Just to warn you, I wrote a lot.. I enjoy you. Your email was very informative in such a nice-nasty way. Or as my mother would say, Nicesty. Im just a little curious, and I definitely dont want to step on any ones toes. But just how long were you and The Witch dating before you got engaged? How did you know that she was the one? Most men arent willing to get married soon after meeting. I think it takes a lot of time being close to someone. Figuring out if there is more to it than love. Because I am a true believer that it takes more than love to make a relationship work. It takes things such as communication. Not just communication, but communicating effectively and efficiently. It takes committment, consideration, security, trust, and honesty. Im sure you understand. But, it also takes time to find these qualities in a mate. Again, just asking, please make me aware if Im overstepping any boundaries. My past relationship ended abrubtly when I realized that I was investing much more into the relationship than I was getting in return. But its not something that you may realize in the "beginning." Im not suggesting anything as far as your situation is concerned, just curious. I respect you telling the women you were formally involved with that the door was officially shut. Its commendable of you, again, some men need a pacifier. I will say that my experience with you has been brief, and in a way sad. We were not given the opportunity to explore the possibilities. But, at least there is a certain level of respect, and no regrets. Ill admit my amazement of your engagement. Im thinking, "Wow, I thought we were onto something. Taking our time, sometimes its more adventurous that way, and now, hes...engaged! And it hasnt even been long enough for him to fall in love!" The Witch being a friend from your past explains that detail, however, I was really wondering, "Is this man healthy?" LOL Just so you know, Im a writer. Short stories, articles, poetry, childrens books, etc. Some of my work has even been published. Do Not publish anything of mine on your website. Its copywrited. LOL! Seriously, I dont want to have to be the delivery of reality to those disillusioned women. Id rather sit back and observe. Unless Im forced to interfere. And we all know, the truth hurts! I know I dont have the body of Halle Berry, but do I want it pointed out to me that I have stretch marks on my thighs? Hell no. A good way to get put on my List. So yes, you can be hurt by honesty, even if it is to improve whatever flaws a person may have. Im not saying its right, just real. Okay now, hold on a minute, you better slow down with your list of things that damaged women. I deserved a good bowl of ice cream when that bastard stood me up on Valentines Day (true story, Ill tell you about it some day, lol). And when I was sitting at home breastfeeding my daughter, I deserved to call him a son of a bitch when he went out and fell in love with an online friend hed never met before. For that matter, all men are dogs!!! Okay, now that I got that out, the rest of your list is fine. I try and be humorous, I wonder if you know when to take me seriously, or when Im attempting to make you smile. Again, I cant make excuses for womens "dysfunctional" behavior. I would drive myself delirious trying to explain. Hey, I cant even tell you why Im the way I am. Did I just get lucky? But some women, just need that extra push. Okay, Ill share with you a story of mine. Im more than considerate. I try and treat people better than they treat me. Except for that man who I let use my credit card and he ran it up so damn high, Im still paying the bill on it. Him, I hate. Im only kidding, let me clarify, I have only had three serious relationships, and all of them are friends. I could probably write a book about all of the crap we went through together. But you live and you learn and you grow. I love your sarcasm. I just hope that Im never on the receiving end of it. I mean Ive felt it in some of your comments (very clever of you), but I dont care to have any of it directed specifically towards me.

(Christany EMAIL PART 2) Thanks for verifying the order of events. Quite interesting. Very interesting. Interesting indeed. so what else did you manage to squeeze in between that time line? How many broken hearts do you leave behind? Let me tell you a secret. Believe it or not, and I know this is going to be very hard to believe, because Im Tiffany, and such a wonderful woman, but Ive never broken a mans heart. I know, amazing huh? Ive been told that I needed to be in control of things, which I think is quite the contrary. I want a man that can be a man. If I have to teach you, then its time for us to move on. I am traditional, hence I am a Capricorn. My birthday falls on the 18th. Ill invite the three of you to the gathering. Hey, all men are stupid!!! So yeah, you would have told me that in the hopes of getting me interested so I would be completely infatuated with you, and become one of those deranged women. So you can write about me on your website, when I try and crash your wedding that I secretly thought was supposed to be for me. Dramatic enough for you? No, of course you arent stupid. Never doubt how incredible you are:-) Congratulations on your weight loss!!! I weigh 145 pounds, and I cant seem to lose ten pounds to save my life. Okay, Ill admit, I reached 152 pounds and had to join weight watchers. Ive maintained that 145, but cant seem to get under it. How did you do it? Im thinking of becoming anorexic for about a month. The gym is cool, but its taking to damn long. I have that trip to Germany to worry about!!! I agree with you about not having any sympathy for the people who eat uncontrollably. Its a little ridiculous, but I just dont find it neccessary to point it out to them. Youve been there, done that, so maybe you can. I thought I was going to burst when I got up to 165 pounds when I was pregnant,and the doctors had the nerves to say gain more weight. My daughter only weighed 5lbs 10 oz. So, what was that other 15 pounds for? Okay, thats me being such a woman. Okay Bachelor, I know that I may be living in a fantasy world, but you didnt have to take away my hope and dreams of meeting a man who can be faithful, fatherless, (okay, he can have one or maybe two, My ex, lied said he had twins, then his sister accidently let it slip that he had twins, and a girl and a boy, I was devastated, to say the least. I want more children, I have one, he has four, I like being a mom, but and here is another contradiction, I dont like kids, or other peoples kids should I say). Anyway, there is a man out there for me, there is a man out there for me (Im hyperventilating), there is a man out there for me, and he will be faithful, and he will be honest, and he will NOT be gay. Sigh..I feel better. But dont you dare rain on my parade. Its not fair, its just not fair!!! Thank you for allowing (the friends issue) to be my call. I just love having options. Bachelor, (that was my first boyfriends name, I called him Steve, hes the Valentine guy, we were together for six years) I have enjoyed exchanging emails with you. I volunteered more information about myself, because I felt as though you shared a part of your life with me, and I wanted to extend the same courtesy. Ill just say that maybe we will become friends, or maybe youll disappear on me again, and not email me (next thing you know you would have won the lottery, or had twins, and Ill be getting an email referring me to a website). However, so far, Im pretty happy with the way things are going. Lets make a deal and just say, well see. Work for you? I read the email and had to smile, Steve, I mean Bachelor, complimented me. I truly blushed. Thank you. Youd think Id be married by now. Well, I would be, accept, I tend to stalk my men, and display such insecurity, that I always chase men off. LOL, Well, I think Im single because men, like women, fail to recognize a good thing when its so simple and evident. Also, sex is a priority in so many mens lives. Im trying to remain celibate until I meet someone who is willing to give as much as I give. No need to invest intimacy into something that isnt worth it. Sex is a priority on many guys list. I like it, and believe me, its hard restraining from it, but I believe it will be worth it in the end. Maybe Captain and I will work something out. Germany, Texas, Texas Germany, hmmm.. You wouldnt have been any good being a "playah." I have the ability to read people. Okay, I make you take a lie detector test, but hey you have to be prepared, never know when some man is out there trying to take advantage. Oh, and my magnetic personality, you cant tell???!!! Honestly, Its not appropriate for me to answer that question. But dont worry, both of our charges are positive. Well be okay in the friends category. I hope to hear from you soon. Take care. Tiffany

Well "The Witch" told her mother and as expected, she hit the ceiling. Its predictable and unfortunate. I got an e-mail from GeGe talking about how she didnt know I had such a "less than favorable" opinion of her on the blog but wished me the best anyway. Being only with one person and settling into that again is a big releif for me. Committing social suicide (telling everyone *else* that I was off the market) was an even bigger relief. It sorted out, who were my friends and who was not and it quieted down my phone. I have had quite a few who decided to tell me off and of course the watch stomping was also quite a hoot. I"ve had some, like Dz and others that thought I was running into and out of many when actually it was really only JB that I was physically involved with and I quit her less than a week after getting back with "The Witch". I figure this trend will continue until everyone says their peace.

I got an e-mail from amazon.com wishing us luck.. It was nice of her to do that. I told her good luck with her husband (LOL!). Married women.. Cant live with em, can live without em.

I had a suspicion that something was up when the (thug voice) OB (end thug voice) called and wanted to see The Witch. Today we found out that the pregnancy is in the tube and will have 2b terminated. The Witch was devistated. I took time out of my busy schedule a few hours ago to grieve myself. Crack hoes, (for which I am one, right?) get to have children all of the time and have them supported by the federal government. Our child was wanted and would be loved and taken care of by The Witch and I. This is $ucked up. This is another moment when I wish I was typical so I could do something else besides be sad.

I had to take "The Witch" to the hospital today to end the pregnancy in her tube. The procedure was quick, about an hour. What followed was really $ucked up. The doctor comes out and describes the procedure (OK) and its success and then proceeds to show me photos of her inner organs, like I really needed to see this. (Not OK) Now, imagine.. Your sad enough that the pregnancy is over, and then to see pictures of them snipping it out? Its kind of messed up in a sinister yet evil way.

The crisis is over and "The Witch" is recovering. Its been a rough couple of days but I have had the love and support of my friends for which I am thankful. The pictures still haunt me. I am ready to move on and foreward. I wonder if she is ready to do so herself..

This is stupid. Christany is reading the blog and is still talking to me and I keep talking to her whenever The Witchs back is turned. All I want is to get that luscious booty of hers. There wont be any sex with The Witch for some time to come. This is wrong but I cant help myself. Damn. The worse thing though is that she is really into me. Today Christany told me that she does not love me. I asked her why would you call me to tell me you don't love me. She said it was because she felt she was too attached already. I asked her who was she trying to convince? Her or me.

I am going to meet Christany. I am well, pensive about this. (START EMAIL)Hey you, I was just thinking about you. Wanted to say hi. See you later tonight. Hope youre having a great day. Tiff

It seems that Christany seems to be figuring out that we arent supposed to be seeing each other. At this point I don't care. I want her, sexually and perhaps otherwise. However my hopes may be dashed with this email. (START EMAIL)Hey, Youve reminded me that this is not supposed to be happening. Meaning, I shouldnt expect anything from you. So, me questioning you regarding no contact last evening is something I should apologize for. Im sorry. Bachelor, Im not sure whats going on here, and Im not doing any good at ignoring it, or waiting it out. It would be too risky. I feel like were avoiding a sensitive topic, that probably deserves our attention. Youll have to let me know what you think, and soon. Im trying very hard to resist putting much thought into it, and as the underlying message in this email indicates, Im not doing to great of a job. We should talk. Tiff

Last night I decided to relaunch the bachelorblog on its own site. Details at 11. In the meantime I had dinner+movie with "The Witch" and her daughter. It was a pleasant evening. The more time goes by the more this feels right..

Well it looks like "The Witch" is acting more like "The Bitch" today. I am not sure whats got her in such a foul mood and, frankly I dont care. So I am taking the day off 2c what kind of trouble I can get into today...

You ever have one of those days where you realize that for the past couple of weeks you are screwing up? I had one of those days yesterday. I just found out about a string of incidents that were minor but when added up, make me look like a heel. So it looks like I have some apologizing/making up 2 do. Crap. She ("The Witch") let me have it and, she was right. For now all seems 2b forgiven. I told her tht actions speak louder than words so I was not going to promise a turnaround overnight. I do however realize now that I need 2b a little more considerate of her feelings, especially with the post partum thing going on right now.

Today was a good day. Its kind of cool to have a day where nothing is going on.

I cant resist anymore so I invited Christany over to spend the night and well, Adult Situations and Language occurred both that night and this morning. I feel guilty because I cheated on The Witch but damn, how do you resist a 24 year old with a body like hers? I am afraid she will get attached though. The whole thing bothers the crap out of me.